Friday, April 21, 2006

please avoid reading this stupid crap.

but the truth is..,i cannot bear the emotion..the emotion of which the memory of her face..giving to me..
i keep telling to myself that i didn't know her nor did i care for her...
and my mind agreed to my words but my heart betrayed me..,it kept saying NO. . - it bled..
i didn't know what to do.,i never felt so confused in my whole existence..
then all of a sudden..there was darkness . . -pitch black, nothingness, silence*
yes there was silence..not only from outside but also from deep within..
. . . . saline rain fell on my lap..along with the bitter thunder..,
it kept on going...
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and it hadn't changed ever since. . .




Sunday, September 18, 2005

once again...sigh,,,

i never really had the chance to tell her...or i had but i never had the heart to do so., and so once again i'm lost inside myself thinking why it kept on going like this...maybe it's really my fault..no,,IT is my fault..... but one thing's for sure.....i've loved her since the day i first saw her until the day i had lose her...the day that ended forever..where the angels lost their wings and the world will lost its meaning. . . .


the world...my world..




Putang-ina, damn it, pakshet, bullshit, shit, fuck,,arrgg......see? inis ako..to myself?? maybe..

once again...sigh,,,

i never really had the chance to tell her...or i had but i never had the heart to do so., and so once again i'm lost inside myself thinking why it kept on going like this...maybe it's really my fault..no,,IT is my fault..... but one thing's for sure.....i've loved her since the day i first saw her until the day i had lose her...the day that ended forever..where the angels lost their wings and the world will lost its meaning. . . .


the world...my world..




Putang-ina, damn it, pakshet, bullshit, shit, fuck,,arrgg......see? inis ako..to myself?? maybe..

Sunday, June 05, 2005

be thin..,

thing none new see in die
who bought who bad
the hill key none thought see
in die last fog see in die

fog must done knew see who one
tea knee tea gas sun cash sea
see in die who bought who bad
bull ball money piece

Friday, May 20, 2005

A special story sent by a special someone. .

Each year he sent her roses and the note would
always say,

I love you even more this year, than last year on
this day. My love for you will always grow, with
every passing year."

She knew this was the last time that the roses
would appear. She thought, he ordered roses in
advance before this day. Her loving husband did
not know that he would pass away. He always
liked to do things early, way before the time. Then,
if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.
She trimmed the stems and placed them in a very
special vase, then, sat the vase beside the portrait
of his smiling face.

She would sit for hours, in her husband's favourite
chair while staring at his picture, and the roses
sitting there. A year went by, and it was to live
without her mate. With loneliness and solitude,
that had become her fate.

Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before, the
doorbell rang, and there were roses sitting by her
door. She brought the roses in, and then just
looked at them in shock; then, went to get the
telephone to call the florist shop. The owner
answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
why someone would do this to her, causing her
such pain...

"I know your husband passed away, more than a
year ago," The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and
you would want to know. The flowers you received
today were paid for in advance. Your husband
always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance.
There is a standing order that I have on file down
here and he has paid, well in advance, you'll get
them every year.

There also is another thing that I think you should
know, He wrote a special little card... he did this
year ago. Then, should ever I find out that he's no
longer here, that's the card that should be sent to
you the following year."

She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears
now flowing hard, her fingers shaking, as she
slowly reaches to get the card. Inside the card,
she saw that he had written her a note.

Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what
he wrote...

"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've
been gone.
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.
I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
Or if it was the other way,
I know how I would feel. The love we shared made
everything so beautiful in life. I loved you more than
words can say, you were the perfect wife. You
were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every
need. I know it's only been a year, but please try
not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your
tears. That is why the roses will be sent to you for
years. When you get these roses, think of all the
happiness, that we had together, and how both of
us were blessed. I have always loved you and I
know I always will. But, my love, you must go on,
you have some living still. Please...try to find
happiness, while living out your days. I know it is
not easy, but I hope you find some ways. The
roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
when your door's not answered, when the florist
stops to knock. He will come five times that day,
in case you have gone out. But after his last visit,
he will know without a doubt
To take the roses to the place, where I've
instructed him and place the roses where we are,
together once again. Sometimes in life, you find a
special friend; someone who changes your life just
by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop; someone who makes you
believe that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you that there really is a
unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.

::Let me Go::

one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve

in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
let me go

i dream we head to what i hope for
and i turn my back on loving you
how could this love be a good thing
when i know what i'm going through

in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you dont know who i am
so let me go, just let me go

no matter how hard i try
i cant escape these things inside
i know, i know
but all the pieces fall apart
you will be the only one who knows
who knows

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand,
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
just let me go

you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know who i am

you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know me...

Monday, May 16, 2005

intriguing..

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not the kind or results i've expected..


Friday, May 13, 2005

You and Me,,

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

Monday, May 09, 2005

the simple life of the heiress..

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Biography for
Paris Hilton

Birth name
Paris Whitney Hilton
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Nickname
Star
Princess
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Height
5' 8" (1.73 m)
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Trade mark
She wears blue coloured contact lenses

Quote and shirts that read "That's Hot"


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Trivia
Formerly engaged to model and actor Jason Shaw [2001]

Sister of Nicky Hilton

Briefly attended The Dwight School in New York City.

Announced she would live on a farm for a new fish-out-of-water "reality" show called "The Simple Life" (2003). The show is reportedly a takeoff on the 1960s sitcom "Green Acres" (1965). [2003]

Heiress daughter of Rick Hilton and Kathy Richards, of the Hilton Hotel empire.

For her 21st birthday, she threw five parties for herself in New York, Las Vegas, London, Hollywood and Tokyo.

Has two younger brothers, Baron and Conrad

Mother is the former actress Kathy Richards.

Niece of Kim Richards and Kyle Richards.

Measurements: 34B-25-35 (Source: Celebrity Sleuth magazine)

Has three Pomeranians named Dolce, Sebastian and Prince, as well as two chihuahuas named Tinkerbell and Bambi.

Briefly attended the Canterbury School, a boarding school in Connecticut, during her junior year. She then transfered to the Dwight School in New York City before dropping out a few months later and getting a GED.

Chosen the worst-dressed celebrity in 2003 by fashion critic Mr. Blackwell (Richard Selzer).

Is good friends with Actress Tara Reid and Reality TV Star Nicole Richie.

Briefly attended the Buckley School in Sherman Oaks, California.

Popularity skyrocketed after a homemade sex video between her and ex- boyfriend Rick Salomon (Shannen Doherty's estranged husband) scattered all over the internet in October of 2003. The video was made when she was 19.

Great-granddaughter of hotel magnate Conrad Hilton; great-niece of Conrad Hilton Jr., the first husband of Elizabeth Taylor.

Has been romantically linked to actors Leonardo DiCaprio, Edward Furlong, Jamie Kennedy, Simon Rex, Australian Idol star Rob Mills, Sum 41 lead singer Deryck Whibley, producer Robert Evans, boxer Oscar De La Hoya, and nightclub owner Ingrid Casares.

Announced at the end of 2003 that she is recording an album. She enlisted the help of J.C. Chasez and his producer Rob Boldt to help in the creation of a dance-pop album.

Dated Backstreet Boys singer Nick Carter. [December 2003-July 2004]

The Hilton name is of Norwegian origin. Her great-great-grandfather August Halvorsen Hilton was born on the family farm Hilton, at Kløfta, just outside Oslo, Norway before emigrating to the US with his family at age 10.

In October 2004, she officially had her popular quote, "That's hot", trademarked.

Great granddaughter of Conrad Hilton, founder of the Hilton Hotel chain, and Mary Adelaide Barron.

Plans to open "Club Paris" in Orlando, Florida in 2005.

She wears a size 11 shoe. Many top designers don't make their shoes in an 11, so they have them custom made just for her.

Was a victim of a serious hacking incident, where her T-Mobile address book, notes, and private photographs taken with a camera phone were released on the Internet. The address book revealed hotel and airline preferences, and exposed private phone numbers and e-mail addresses for numerous celebrities and other Hollywood elite.

Favorite sport is golf

Madame Tussaud's on 42nd Street unveiled a wax dummy of her to coincide with the release of the movie House of Wax (2005) in which she has a role. [1 May 2005]


(She was secretly married to Mr. Raphael Lacson..Ü)