Morceaux Littéraires Immortels

please avoid reading this stupid crap.

2006-04-21T03:06:00.000+08:00

but the truth is..,i cannot bear the emotion..the emotion of which the memory of her face..giving to me..
i keep telling to myself that i didn't know her nor did i care for her...
and my mind agreed to my words but my heart betrayed me..,it kept saying NO. . - it bled..
i didn't know what to do.,i never felt so confused in my whole existence..
then all of a sudden..there was darkness . . -pitch black, nothingness, silence*
yes there was silence..not only from outside but also from deep within..
. . . . saline rain fell on my lap..along with the bitter thunder..,
it kept on going...
and going....
and going...
and going....
and going...
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and it hadn't changed ever since. . .

once again...sigh,,,

2005-09-18T12:36:00.001+08:00

i never really had the chance to tell her...or i had but i never had the heart to do so., and so once again i'm lost inside myself thinking why it kept on going like this...maybe it's really my fault..no,,IT is my fault..... but one thing's for sure.....i've loved her since the day i first saw her until the day i had lose her...the day that ended forever..where the angels lost their wings and the world will lost its meaning. . . .

the world...my world..

Putang-ina, damn it, pakshet, bullshit, shit, fuck,,arrgg......see? inis ako..to myself?? maybe..

once again...sigh,,,

2005-09-18T12:36:00.000+08:00

be thin..,

2005-06-05T20:09:00.000+08:00

thing none new see in die
who bought who bad
the hill key none thought see
in die last fog see in die

fog must done knew see who one
tea knee tea gas sun cash sea
see in die who bought who bad
bull ball money piece

A special story sent by a special someone. .

2005-05-20T20:05:00.000+08:00

Each year he sent her roses and the note would
always say,

I love you even more this year, than last year on
this day. My love for you will always grow, with
every passing year."

She knew this was the last time that the roses
would appear. She thought, he ordered roses in
advance before this day. Her loving husband did
not know that he would pass away. He always
liked to do things early, way before the time. Then,
if he got too busy, everything would work out fine.
She trimmed the stems and placed them in a very
special vase, then, sat the vase beside the portrait
of his smiling face.

She would sit for hours, in her husband's favourite
chair while staring at his picture, and the roses
sitting there. A year went by, and it was to live
without her mate. With loneliness and solitude,
that had become her fate.

Then, the very hour, as on Valentines before, the
doorbell rang, and there were roses sitting by her
door. She brought the roses in, and then just
looked at them in shock; then, went to get the
telephone to call the florist shop. The owner
answered, and she asked him, if he would explain,
why someone would do this to her, causing her
such pain...

"I know your husband passed away, more than a
year ago," The owner said, "I knew you'd call, and
you would want to know. The flowers you received
today were paid for in advance. Your husband
always planned ahead, he left nothing to chance.
There is a standing order that I have on file down
here and he has paid, well in advance, you'll get
them every year.

There also is another thing that I think you should
know, He wrote a special little card... he did this
year ago. Then, should ever I find out that he's no
longer here, that's the card that should be sent to
you the following year."

She thanked him and hung up the phone, her tears
now flowing hard, her fingers shaking, as she
slowly reaches to get the card. Inside the card,
she saw that he had written her a note.

Then, as she stared in total silence, this is what
he wrote...

"Hello my love, I know it's been a year since I've
been gone.
I hope it hasn't been too hard for you to overcome.
I know it must be lonely, and the pain is very real.
Or if it was the other way,
I know how I would feel. The love we shared made
everything so beautiful in life. I loved you more than
words can say, you were the perfect wife. You
were my friend and lover, you fulfilled my every
need. I know it's only been a year, but please try
not to grieve.
I want you to be happy, even when you shed your
tears. That is why the roses will be sent to you for
years. When you get these roses, think of all the
happiness, that we had together, and how both of
us were blessed. I have always loved you and I
know I always will. But, my love, you must go on,
you have some living still. Please...try to find
happiness, while living out your days. I know it is
not easy, but I hope you find some ways. The
roses will come every year, and they will only stop,
when your door's not answered, when the florist
stops to knock. He will come five times that day,
in case you have gone out. But after his last visit,
he will know without a doubt
To take the roses to the place, where I've
instructed him and place the roses where we are,
together once again. Sometimes in life, you find a
special friend; someone who changes your life just
by being part of it. Someone who makes you laugh
until you can't stop; someone who makes you
believe that there really is good in the world.
Someone who convinces you that there really is a
unlocked door just waiting for you to open it.

::Let me Go::

2005-05-20T12:15:00.000+08:00

one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve

in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
let me go

i dream we head to what i hope for
and i turn my back on loving you
how could this love be a good thing
when i know what i'm going through

in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you dont know who i am
so let me go, just let me go

no matter how hard i try
i cant escape these things inside
i know, i know
but all the pieces fall apart
you will be the only one who knows
who knows

you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand,
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
just let me go

you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know who i am

you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know me...

intriguing..

2005-05-16T23:22:00.000+08:00

R	Revolutionary
A	Altruistic
P	Principled
H	Helpful
A	Awesome
E	Enchanting
L	Loud

You and Me,,

2005-05-13T01:53:00.000+08:00

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off you

Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of

You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't why I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

the simple life of the heiress..

2005-05-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

Biography for
Paris Hilton

Birth name
Paris Whitney Hilton
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Nickname
Star
Princess
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Height
5' 8" (1.73 m)
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Trade mark
She wears blue coloured contact lenses

Quote and shirts that read "That's Hot"

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Trivia
Formerly engaged to model and actor Jason Shaw [2001]

Sister of Nicky Hilton

Briefly attended The Dwight School in New York City.

Announced she would live on a farm for a new fish-out-of-water "reality" show called "The Simple Life" (2003). The show is reportedly a takeoff on the 1960s sitcom "Green Acres" (1965). [2003]

Heiress daughter of Rick Hilton and Kathy Richards, of the Hilton Hotel empire.

For her 21st birthday, she threw five parties for herself in New York, Las Vegas, London, Hollywood and Tokyo.

Has two younger brothers, Baron and Conrad

Mother is the former actress Kathy Richards.

Niece of Kim Richards and Kyle Richards.

Measurements: 34B-25-35 (Source: Celebrity Sleuth magazine)

Has three Pomeranians named Dolce, Sebastian and Prince, as well as two chihuahuas named Tinkerbell and Bambi.

Briefly attended the Canterbury School, a boarding school in Connecticut, during her junior year. She then transfered to the Dwight School in New York City before dropping out a few months later and getting a GED.

Chosen the worst-dressed celebrity in 2003 by fashion critic Mr. Blackwell (Richard Selzer).

Is good friends with Actress Tara Reid and Reality TV Star Nicole Richie.

Briefly attended the Buckley School in Sherman Oaks, California.

Popularity skyrocketed after a homemade sex video between her and ex- boyfriend Rick Salomon (Shannen Doherty's estranged husband) scattered all over the internet in October of 2003. The video was made when she was 19.

Great-granddaughter of hotel magnate Conrad Hilton; great-niece of Conrad Hilton Jr., the first husband of Elizabeth Taylor.

Has been romantically linked to actors Leonardo DiCaprio, Edward Furlong, Jamie Kennedy, Simon Rex, Australian Idol star Rob Mills, Sum 41 lead singer Deryck Whibley, producer Robert Evans, boxer Oscar De La Hoya, and nightclub owner Ingrid Casares.

Announced at the end of 2003 that she is recording an album. She enlisted the help of J.C. Chasez and his producer Rob Boldt to help in the creation of a dance-pop album.

Dated Backstreet Boys singer Nick Carter. [December 2003-July 2004]

The Hilton name is of Norwegian origin. Her great-great-grandfather August Halvorsen Hilton was born on the family farm Hilton, at Kløfta, just outside Oslo, Norway before emigrating to the US with his family at age 10.

In October 2004, she officially had her popular quote, "That's hot", trademarked.

Great granddaughter of Conrad Hilton, founder of the Hilton Hotel chain, and Mary Adelaide Barron.

Plans to open "Club Paris" in Orlando, Florida in 2005.

She wears a size 11 shoe. Many top designers don't make their shoes in an 11, so they have them custom made just for her.

Was a victim of a serious hacking incident, where her T-Mobile address book, notes, and private photographs taken with a camera phone were released on the Internet. The address book revealed hotel and airline preferences, and exposed private phone numbers and e-mail addresses for numerous celebrities and other Hollywood elite.

Favorite sport is golf

Madame Tussaud's on 42nd Street unveiled a wax dummy of her to coincide with the release of the movie House of Wax (2005) in which she has a role. [1 May 2005]

(She was secretly married to Mr. Raphael Lacson..Ü)

girls are evil...haha!

2005-05-05T02:50:00.000+08:00

songs about her; for her..

2005-05-03T19:05:00.000+08:00

It's your smile,
Your face, your lips that I miss,
Those sweet little eyes that stare at me
And make me say,
I'm with you through all the way.
'Cause it's you
Who fills the emptiness in me;
It changes ev'rything, you see,
When I know I've got you with me

I'll never go far away from you
Even the sky will tell you
That i need you so
For this is all i know
I'll never go far away from

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘cause tonight i’ll leave my fears behind
‘cause tonight i’ll be right at your side

But still i see the tears from your eyes
Maybe i’m just not the one for you.

I love you more than you'll ever know
I love you more than you'll ever see
More than my heart could ever show
I love you more than you'll ever know

Close your eyes
Dry your tears
‘Coz when nothing seems clear
You’ll be safe here
From the sheer weight
Of your doubts and fears
Weary heart
You’ll be safe here

When the light disappears
And when this world’s insincere
You’ll be safe here
When nobody hears you scream
I’ll scream with you
You’ll be safe here

Save your eyes
From your tears
When everything’s unclear
You’ll be safe here

In my arms
Through the long cold night
Sleep tight
You’ll be safe here

When no one understands
I’ll believe
You’ll be safe,
You’ll be safe
You’ll be safe here
Put your heart in my hands
You’ll be safe here

She can kill with a smile, she can wound with her eyes,
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies,
And she only reveals what she wants you to see
She hides like a child but she's always a woman to me
She can lead you to love, she can take you or leave you,
She can ask for the truth but she'll never believe you,
And she'll take what you give her as long as it's free,
Yeah she steals like a thief but she's always a woman to me
Oh, she takes care of herself, she can wait if she wants,
She's ahead of her time

Oh, and she never gives out and she never gives in,
She just changes her mind
She is frequently kind and she's suddenly cruel,
She can do as she pleases, she's nobody's fool,
But she can't be convicted, she's earned her degree,
And the most she will do is throw shadows at you
But she's always a woman to me.

She may be the face I can't forget
The trace of pleasure or regret
Maybe my treasure or the prize I have to pay
She may be the song that summer sings
Maybe the children autumn brings
Maybe a hundred different things
Within the measure of a day

She maybe the reason I survive
The why and wherefore kind of life
The one I care for through the rough and ready years

raphael....

2005-04-24T19:29:00.000+08:00

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raphael is identified with the angel who moved the healing waters of
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P.H.S. Beloved

2005-04-20T09:45:00.000+08:00

P.H.S. Beloved, the well spring of future sages
The sunshine of all ages.
Fervently we adore thee.

The brilliance has radiated, precious gems of golden thoughts
Meritorious! A distinct zeal
live with mem'ries ever will.

"Midst the verdure of thy vast tract, where the whispering
breezes sough;
Down the verdant: evergreen lawn,
Where the dew falls fresh dawn;

Such spacious tidy rooms wide, fill they gladsome youth
with pride -
All these beauty me us love thee,
Ne'er a school was there so grand!

The gift of wondrous bless light, misguided steps to lead aright,
Of the future nation builders,
That from far off climes doth come!

The backbone of our freedom, rooted deep in the bosom
Was the mainspring of our heroes
Who for justice fought to resign.

O school dear of Pampanga, let the voice of wisdom ring;
Tap the genius to the full swing,
With morals behind its wing,

That he is not let no Man be, nor the envious to rule free,
Let all goodness with love entwine
For truth begets divine.

"the author's journey to hell" (still UNfinished and with some errors)

2005-04-18T09:41:00.000+08:00

Ben, that's what I first called him. He was a nice fellow. He always followed me wherever I go. At first, it didn't seem to bother me so I ignored him but as time went by he became a nuisance to my life. Later that night, I 've waited for him in my room. Surprisingly, he didn't show up but I knew at that time that he was there waiting for me to sleep. I tried to communicate with him but he didn't answer and then suddenly something made me drowsy and in an instant, I fell into a deep sleep.

I woke up in to a different world. "It must be a dream.", I said to myself. But somehow, it doesn't looked like a dream. It really felt like I'm in a real world, a world where everything has no limit. I was beside an Everglade where I saw some odd-looking mushrooms. They were the size of a full grown man and and filled with custard on the inside. It was quite a delicious sight. I tried to poke one of them but it seemed like its outer skin is as tough as a cow's hide. A sharp pointed blade couldn't even penetrate it. And so I gave up and continued to explore the terrain. At the far end of the bushy grassland, there was a deep well. I looked down and it was empty. Then I turned around and saw a sign. It read "Gateway to Hell". I got really curious and ignored the sign. At the east of the well, I saw an old shack and so I went there. The place seemed to be abandoned but everything still seems to be intact and in proper order. It pretty much contained everything I need - a torch, medical herbs, preserved foods, and a rope. After gathering everything I need, I packed them up and went back to the well.

I've reached the well and rappeled down from it using the rope I got from the shack. After a few hours, I found out that this well is not what it seemed to be but an illusion to conceal a deep and gigantic cave which was said to be the gateway to hell. Again, I just ignored it and kept on going until I began to hear the eerie howls of the abyss. And as I descend deeper and deeper, the soul-piercing sounds intensified. I got tired so I rested for awhile in a large crevice along my path. Sitting inside the crevice, I still kept on hearing those wretched howls. At that moment, I finally understood what those howls really were. They were cries, cries of eternal torment. "I'm going crazy!", I said to myself. I was about to go to the belly of the devil itself and yet I feel no fear or the will to flee this god-forsaken place. I silently contemplated for awhile and eventually dozed-off....to be continued

(panaginip lang to mga pare...wag niyong seryosohin..)

an ode to my parents

2005-04-17T16:41:00.000+08:00

you were always there for me, i knew that.
you never left my side in times of hardships
you comfort me whenever i feel down and blue
you showered me your love, kindness, and hope
you never forget to make me a sandwhich
whenever i'm hungry or when i'm upset
you always knew where you keep my pills
whenever my tummy aches or my head hurts
i kinda wondered what would my life be without you
yeah i know it will be a life full of crap and misery
so i'm trying my best to be with you with ev'ry passing day
yeah, i guess these are the very extra special reasons
the very reasons why i loved so much in all these years
heck is, i'll still love you even without these reasons
'cause you made my life complete... yeah, thats why!

Confused?! He Loves although he Hates

2005-04-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

a blister in my heart, that's what you are!
all you did is to make me suffer and suffer more
but still why does my heart kept saying this to me?
that i still love you and i don't wanna lose you

in times of loneliness you have always haunt me
your lips, your eyes, your smile, your voice, your face
even just the glimpse of you gives me an excruciating pain
a pain that deeply pierces both my heart and my soul

i hate myself. and i hate it because of you
i have cursed the day i met you.
i have also cherished the moments i was with you
and this is why i all this time i kept on being a fool

and now, i live my life as a person whose sanity is lost
confusion stirred inside my mind whether i lose you or not
i guess thats what's driving me insane, the thought of losing you
such feeling that brings extreme hatred in my heart

your love

2005-04-17T13:03:00.000+08:00

have i really lost you?
or am i the one whose lost.
i can never really tell though,
for insanity still lingers in my heart
yet day by day this illness gets worse
the longing to have you, to feel you, to hug you
still, there is a cure to this wretched sickness
the most potent of all so called panaceas
the one that no magic cannot achieve
the one that brings forth life to anyone who receives it
the one that i got from you
and in one fell sweep it got away
the one thing, the thing that made my life complete....
your love

Pamagmacalunus

2005-04-17T10:49:00.000+08:00

yacu.
ninu ba yacu para queca?
ni minsan ba aisip mu na,
atsu cu queni na mimisip queca?
mimisip na balang aldo apansin mucu
pero nang apala cu nung mangarap ku cabud?
nung ala nacuman gagawan para apansin mucu
quing tutu man aaminan cu..
aaminan cu na mayna cu lub.
ecu agawang lumawe quecang diretsu
bala nang akakit daka maybug cung manacbag
sisican ing tibuc ning pusu
magpadagdag carug quing salu....
o sinta co, caluguran daca!
ecu agyung kumabye nung ala ca.
ica ing tanging sasalba quing biye cu
ica ing tanging iisipan cu abac man o bengi
caya sana naman anngang misan mu
lawen mu nacu man at pakisabyan mucu.

The sword of truth..

2005-03-18T19:28:00.000+08:00

in a dreary twilight, thou shall see me

ever ready to strike with vengeance

open thy eyes and i shall open thine

then freedom i shall give thee..

truth...